DIAMONDS FOR THE SOLE

Diamonds for the sole. I must say it wasn't until this very moment that I realised what my diamond for today will be. I've been ill and using the painkillers I told you about. It made me sleepy and I stopped blogging for a few days. I just didn't have the energy. Today I was really grumpy and I couldn't understand why ???

I also couldn't find a diamond or anything good during the last few days to tell you - and the less I told you the grumpier I felt. It was only a few moments ago when it hit me. My diamond for today is this blogspot. 

Strange how you only realise what is important to you when you lost it. You see, my blogspot made sure that I searched for the good in everyday, everyday. So when I stopped blogging I stopped focusing on the positive in my life. The pain of the negative totally overwhelmed me and I only saw the negative. And believe me, when you look hard enough there is so much negative to see. The negative has the power to overwhelm you and destroy you. It has the power to influence everything you say and everything you do also. 

What a lesson ???

So it is now that I realise this blog is a must for me. I need this blog to keep me from losing control. I need to share my good stuff with you - not only to give you hope but also to give myself some hope. I need to share my stories with you to help me keep my dreams alive.

Isn't it strange, how when you lose focus everything becomes bigger than it is ??

For example, solar heating. This week my husband told me that his boss wants to use our house to try out solar heating. I totally flipped !!! Why, because she knows that I shower every morning at 5h00. I wouldn't have warm water. She knows this but still she are thinking about this. I've heard such horror stories. Some children in my family wanted to watch my son's rugby game. They irritated the "hell" out of me. Sorry but there is no other way to tell you. I just couldn't handle it. And so there is lots of things that happened this week.... while I was not blogging. And my reaction to all of the above were so negative !!!

And know as I'm sitting here, thinking about all of it - I know that there is a better way of handling it. As a matter of fact there is only one way of handling it and that is to keep focusing on God. To trust Him to make my pain bearable, to trust Him to help me not to lose control. I've been confused by the world. I've been confused by my physical pain and I let it influence my judgement. 

So you know what - I think I need to thank all of you for reading my blog. I need to thank all of you for not giving up hope. I need to tell you that you as my readers are my inspiration and I will keep on feeding this blog......I will keep on sharing my diamonds with you. I need to do this !!!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL WITH LOTS OF DIAMONDS !!!